They watch you and follow you through to the darkest corners of your mind

As you slowly fall into the next menial activity you have planned out

On your todo list you so neatly set out for yourself

Even there a check box is out of place or a word is misspelled 

It’s not right. It’s not the way I want 

or how everyone thinks it needs to be. 

Look over there at the girl who doesn’t abide by the unbroken code. 

Her ability to avoid the “normal” and “average”

Her code of disbalance disproportion 

avoidance of accordance to the strict bylaws 

Torn down in her non conformist mind where she

Creates her own cage to sit in

With her own lions and wildebeests

Even when sitting independently

There are still the imperfections

whether everybody shares them in disgust and contempt 

Or they are your own personally tailored set of horrors unseen and unknown and uncared for by everyone else 

Those out off place those chipped walls or facades and freckles on your face that others can’t see (or they can)

Those imperfections linger on you with you through the out

eventually you take up residency with the lion and wildebeest

Happy to blame the cage because what else can you do but stare out at those imperfections

Blocking you from escaping your own complexly laid out way of thought

Your own complexly laid out discrepancies 

Your own imperfections 

Unchangeable unshakeable unalterable 

And overall uncontrollable thus not your fault  



Overdue Anecdotes

So I have made another blog The Lala Studies it is sort of a motivation blog and i am probably going update it regularly unlike this blog. Then I have my tumblrs My AestheticMy Trash, and My Studyblr. If you go to the tag “Lala says Stuff” you will get to see any of my posts on the tumblr. Just thought a generalized update was overdue. Also messaging me on tumblr is probs the easiest way to contact moi. 

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Whoop There It Is

So I forgot to post yesterday. Yes, I feel the shame. Honestly though it was s pretty dandy day and I updated tumblr twice. Soooo
Honestly the sat was tough the teasing sections and my essay were cray and in expecting kind of a poop Scot ngl. Oh well they release in Ng burthday do lets see how that goes. 

After I went to the tech game. Which was a lot of fun. Kali (that name change though ) was super sweet and so was her family. Their box seats were right under the jumbotron and I actually understand what was happening in the game. Aka I learned football. Which was pretty swell. Also the buffet was A++. Anyway afterwards I can home got unready and watched the Dolan twins videos for about 3-4 hours. And then my parents can home and presented me with my new fuzzy pajama set. GOD BLESSS. 

So I’m off to actually do the homework I promised I’d do. 

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Book Blog Name Tag

I know your reading this like
“Wtf Lala your not a book blog”
Well I do love to read and I do have a review coming soon-ish hopefully. October was a rushed month so I pretended it hadn’t ended causing me to watch Halloweentown on Monday night. Now I am finally prepared to embrace this lovely transition month of November and to begin it I decided to do my first tag post.
Just a quick one. This was started by alwaysopinianatedgirland I saw it first on the blog, awritinghufflepuff

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